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Life And Style: When Frankie Became Fanny

  • THIRD GENDER: Ginger, a transsexual make-up artist. (Photo courtesy: DESMOND WEE/ The Straits Times)

A father of a 10-year-old daughter has now decided to live the rest of his life as a woman.

Two months ago, a former first sergeant who served 10 years in the Singapore navy sent a mass SMS to all his friends.

It said: “Dear friends, I have changed my name from Frankie to Fanny.”

Some laughed it off as a prank. Others called up Frankie Ler, 34, and were stunned when he told them he had decided to become a woman.

The divorcee and father of a 10-year-old girl told them he had started “transitioning”: He had grown his hair, was taking female hormone pills, and had begun wearing women’s clothes.

“I didn’t want them to get a shock if they bumped into me on the street,” said the administrative assistant, sitting in a Rowell Road Cafe with her daughter.

"I wanted to be a woman but I had to be sure it wouldn’t hurt my daughter."

Her face is powdered, and she is wearing light eye shadow and lipstick. Her broad shoulders fill out a conservative black blouse, which she complements with a knee-length patterned skirt and sensible pumps.

Half an hour earlier, Fanny was the main ‘attraction’ at ‘My Wife, My Kids’, one of several events in this year’s IndigNation—the local gay community’s annual pride season.

Facing an inquisitive audience of more than 60 people, she explained why she had to change sex so late in life, after marriage and fatherhood.

Fanny—who has a younger sister—claims her transsexualism surfaced only last year. Her late father was a factory worker, her mother, now 56, is a retired washerwoman.

“I never thought I had any problems, I just thought I had an abnormal hobby,” she says in a mixture of English and Mandarin. That hobby was a penchant for dressing in women’s clothes. She discovered she liked it while trying on her mother’s clothes at 10, and continued to furtively cross-dress until she got married at 23.

The Yio Chu Kang Secondary School alumnus—who signed up with the navy after a brief stint as a security guard—met and fell in love with her wife on an Internet chatline.

They got married three months later. Their daughter was born the following year. “Just before I got married, I threw out all the shoes and dresses I had bought over the years. We were a very normal couple during our marriage. I was not gay and I did not have any interest in men,” says Fanny.

The marriage broke up seven years later in 2004. The couple have joint custody of their daughter.

“We just drifted apart. It had nothing to do with cross-dressing,” she says.

One day in June last year, she typed “men who love to dress up as women” in Google. The search engine threw up many links, one of which led to sgbutterfly.org—a resource site for local transsexuals.

She trawled through the site’s many articles and discussion threads, and even posted questions, on transsexual issues—from identity struggles to hormone treatments and make-up tips. “I was so happy. I finally found the answers to so many of the questions in my head,” she says.

Two months later, after she was convinced that she was a woman trapped in a man’s body, she spoke to the person closest to her: her daughter.

“I wanted to be a woman but I had to be sure it wouldn’t hurt my daughter. So I decided to ask, not tell, her if I should transit. If she had said no, I wouldn’t have done this.”

The Primary 4 pupil (whom we are not naming to protect her identity) says she was “a little bit surprised that he should ask this question”.

Fanny carefully explained what she was going through and why she felt the way she did.

The precocious little girl gave her approval. “His physical looks will change but he is still my father. He has always been very caring, and is always teaching me to be brave,” she says, adding that she has told two of her closest friends but sworn them to secrecy.

Fanny felt a big load taken off her shoulders. “My mind was very clear. I was divorced and I’ve been given a second chance to live my life right.”

She went for psychiatric evaluation which confirmed she had gender identity disorder (GID). She started her hormonal therapy late last year. Her sister, parents and friends were told next. They were shocked but took it well save for just one friend who has cut off all contact.

The last to know was her former wife. “She was very upset but I explained that I found it hardest to tell her because we had such a close relationship,” says Fanny who plans to have her operation in Singapore next year.

“To her credit, she joined SgButterfly (Singapore’s transgender community portal) to try and understand why I had to do this,” says Fanny, who adds that the former spouse occasionally takes her shopping for women’s clothes.

Fanny happily lets on that she recently found a job in a construction firm. Her boss and her colleagues are aware of her status.

She does not harbour grand plans such as marriage for the future. “I just want to focus on my daughter.”

The latter ponders when asked what it’s like to have two mothers. “It’s okay to have two mummies. I can still enjoy both their love.” (By WONG KIM HOH In Singapore/ The Straits Times/ AsiaNews)

MySinchew 2008.10.25

 

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